I had been able to passed and survived many innumerable" mistakes causing pains" from the past.
but still my undiscipline heart cannot resist to repeat them.
It seem that all the lessons that I had learned..seems to be unlearned by my undiscipline heart whenever I repeat those "mistakes causing pains" ...
It seem that all the resistance that prevented me from those damn things break loose whenever I had a chance to repeat them...
Oh I just don't know....
it seem that I'm the maker of my own cursed pains...
It seem that I was caught between mistakes and pains..
Oh I just don't know...
It seem that darkness are pulling me down....
pulling me down to the edge....
to the edge....
to the edge, where I had no more chance of repeating them...
It seem that there is no proper place for me to prevent me from repeating them...
than...
to the grave....